Lately I was rethinking decisions in my life. One of the major ones was starting this site. What was my purpose? Did it accomplish what it set out to do? Can this site become what I wanted it to be?
In the long run, it may still prosper. In the short term, the answer is no.
Yet during all this I STILL make art. I still draw all the time and work on improving!
Why do I bother at all? Because I find the challenge of drawing and illustration fun. It’s just plain fun.
I don’t just have fun when I draw something. Sometimes I get frustrated beyond belief when something I’m working on does not come out the way I wanted it too. But the challenge of mastering illustration is that you can never master it at all! You will always improve, your style will always evolve, and there will always be something new to create.
This to me is the fun part of drawing.
If you want to grow as an artist, you need to stop treating your artistic endeavors as academic and have fun! Find the fun in your artwork or else you won’t improve at a good pace and you will find nothing but bitterness and frustration from your efforts.
Once you find something enjoyable and fun in the creation process of your works of art, you will be so much happier and motivated.
As for this site . . . it’s as much of a challenge as it’s an experiment. I do find challenges fun, although it’s pretty depressing not to get anything back for the effort. That could be my fault, I’m not really sure. I’ll just have to approach things differently and see if I get better results.
For now I’ve slowed my update schedule considerably to create more robust content. My latest efforts got halted by Hurricane Sandy, but hopefully I can get back to work on the videos and launch before Thanksgiving.
Oh yeah, I put a lot of love into my latest piece of Felicia from the Capcom game, DarkStalkers. I had fun making it, no real reason to draw Felicia, I just wanted to challenge myself, and I like the results!